Just Pretend

On: Grief

Just pretend that you are alright. 
Pretend that life is normal.
Pretend that you will deal with it tomorrow.

Surreal,
Unthinkable, 
Preposterous.

There is no way that this is happening to me,
To my kids,
To my extended family.

I’ve got this. 
I can handle this. 
I know it will get easier. 

Maybe it isn’t pretending as much as ignoring.
Maybe it is simply avoiding.
Perhaps this is all just a bad dream. 

I know that each day will be filled with its challenges. 
I fear that those challenges will bring me to my knees. 
I will face those challenges head on because I have no other choice. 

Act casual.
Be cool.
Stay calm.
And 
Expect to cry at the drop of a hat.

Just pretend.